I guess after a two years i believe my heart is actually moving after all the J heartbreak yet now that i see him it's quite refreshing knowing that i no longer feel any  sadness and waking up crying every morning. Yea sure, ill always have feelings for him but never enough to get back with him and yea time to time i do recall all the happy times but then i realize that's in the past and it will never come back unless i magically create a time machine which i probably wouldn't because im smart but not that smart. Plus j is now someone new someone that i didn't fall in love with someone who isn't right for me we will always remain good friends that is all. My new boy friend R ive known him for 2 years during drum corps and he is the sweetest and nicest guy ive met so far. I can honestly and completely say im in love with him. We've been dating for 2 1/2 months but what can i say i fell in love with my bestfriend and he asked my parents for permission to date me on our first date. Dad was intimidating because im his only daughter and Mom well she took it better than jer because at the end of the cancun trip she hated him therefore she loved ruben. After a dark 2 years everything is turning around plus i wont have to see jer no more that much since im going to fullerton college and he will be a senior in hs. I like the way my life turned out for now it's pretty nice.