he found a way

 so there was this person in my past who i was with at a time for a while and after we moved on everything was different he was a different person and so was i it was like we were strangers. Ofcourse it was hard to accept the way he was but i did even with his downfalls i was still there and still am. It was like all of a sudden looks mattered he had a different taste in things and he changed completely who he was ....he lost track of himself one of those days and went through some difficult times and found someone new. That person he was with gave him happiness and yet that person just used him. When i found out i will admit i disliked her and wanted to confront her about it but it was none of my business and it was better left alone because even after all that he was still lost in love with her. Even after them he tried remaining friends with her but it just didnt really work out and he had a rough time but Now..... he found a place to forgive her and knows what its like to be there for a person who he knows wont feel the same way but hes moved on now and has a amazing heart and is working on himself as a person. He will grow to eventually be an Amazing man because i know its deep inside him underneath all that hurt and misfortune. I know he's trying his best to discover himself and his future and grow up to be exactly what he wants because he is a hard worker even though he might think less of himself. I believe he can be whatever he wants to be as long as he never loses his passion for what he is doing now and just let it grow stronger with each day that goes by no matter what happens.

I guess after a two years i believe my heart is actually moving after all the J heartbreak yet now that i see him it's quite refreshing knowing that i no longer feel any  sadness and waking up crying every morning. Yea sure, ill always have feelings for him but never enough to get back with him and yea time to time i do recall all the happy times but then i realize that's in the past and it will never come back unless i magically create a time machine which i probably wouldn't because im smart but not that smart. Plus j is now someone new someone that i didn't fall in love with someone who isn't right for me we will always remain good friends that is all. My new boy friend R ive known him for 2 years during drum corps and he is the sweetest and nicest guy ive met so far. I can honestly and completely say im in love with him. We've been dating for 2 1/2 months but what can i say i fell in love with my bestfriend and he asked my parents for permission to date me on our first date. Dad was intimidating because im his only daughter and Mom well she took it better than jer because at the end of the cancun trip she hated him therefore she loved ruben. After a dark 2 years everything is turning around plus i wont have to see jer no more that much since im going to fullerton college and he will be a senior in hs. I like the way my life turned out for now it's pretty nice.